Today was one of those days where dreams were so vivid and scary that my brain still cannot fathom what went one. Travelling back from the rural area was a task on its own arriving late and trying to be present and hopeful even when I feel broken inside is worrying. Dear diary today is one of those days where my child was so emotional and cried as I could see myself in her, as my emotions are not as stable as I thought they were, those days when I feel wishy washy and I can not said it out loud what it is that I am feeling and what I can do about it.
Dear diary today is when I change my mind and my thoughts, remind myself that I am great, I am worthy and I can be who ever I want to be that this world may seem tough however I should be okay with how things are. I am unlearning some of the irrational thoughts that makes rejection feels like it was about oneself and it is not true. My emotional self is going to learn to be okay with the way things are, learn to always have rational thoughts, learn to accept rejection and remember it is okay not to be okay. Dear diary today is one of those days that talking to someone may not work I just need to talk to myself and remind myself I am okay. Dear diary my day is just starting and I am hoping to have a good day and thank God I have a listening ear. Dear diary may you always remind me that I am not alone.
Sitting here listening to Lucy and her feelings remind me how mental health is an issue that needs to be addressed and people talk about it. I remember someone saying that depression does not need medicine that depression is all about talking to someone, that people are responsible for their own mind and it is their fault if they cannot manage themselves. This was so harsh hearing and still wanted to understand where they are coming from. Listening to Lucy I felt empathy as I imagine what if she met this person who do not believe that depression is a disease that mental illness exists. What would Lucy felt or done and for that I feel we should all know that depression is a disease and it should be treated as one.
Just like Lucy many people struggles with low self esteem, feelings of unworthy, not being enough, feelings of uncertainty and that’s part of life, it is in recognition of one’s challenges and seeking help that one experience healing which is a process in itself. As ― C.S. Lewis said, “Mental pain is less dramatic than physical pain, but it is more common and also more hard to bear. The frequent attempt to conceal mental pain increases the burden: it is easier to say; “My tooth is aching” than to say, “My heart is broken.”
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