A Sweet Tooth and a Bitter Country:  Personal Reflection on Grief, Rage and Femicide

I’m really into my feelings today, and I remember that a few years ago, a pen and paper were the only tools I knew how to use to express my emotions. And today is one of those days when my body craves sweet things because the sweet tooth my mother gave me when I wasContinue reading “A Sweet Tooth and a Bitter Country:  Personal Reflection on Grief, Rage and Femicide”

Dear Diary – My feelings

My dear diary, I have missed you very much. I have unfinished logs that need to come here, but today, I feel like this one needs to be shared and will make me feel better. Anyway, I am glad I am here now at this moment in November 2024 when my hand twitched and tremoredContinue reading “Dear Diary – My feelings”

The Birth of My Daughter Saved My Life: My Brain Tumour Discovery Journey

On the 11th of August this year, my daughter will turn eight years old, but a few months before her birthday, I have consistently been feeling really low with so many confusing emotions. I have wondered where all of these emotions came from; however, it has been like this since 2016 when I discovered IContinue reading “The Birth of My Daughter Saved My Life: My Brain Tumour Discovery Journey”

Revolutionary and Audacious Love: Is it possible in this lifetime?

The other day, a friend told me the story of a husband who wanted to have a girlfriend. They had known each other for many years, and it was never the perfect time to be together. Now married with two children, the man, let’s call him Abdulsamad, was happy in his marriage but still wantedContinue reading “Revolutionary and Audacious Love: Is it possible in this lifetime?”

Why I fell in love with words and writing

Today, I am sitting in my tiny room in New York, perusing my blog and being reminded of when I first fell in love with writing and how the current writing block has lasted for years. I remember in my early twenties, I used to have this little book, and every time words, dreams, andContinue reading “Why I fell in love with words and writing”

Dear Diary- Google Doctor

Dear Diary, today is one of those days that I got reminded of my experience of transforming into a google doctor when faced with illness or life threatening condition. Back in 2016 just after the delivery of my little one I was diagnosed with brain tumor of the frontal lobe called Meningioma. I remember duringContinue reading “Dear Diary- Google Doctor”

Stigma and discrimination hindering pregnant girls to go back to school

15-year-old Maria* had been having relations with a 15-year-old Andrew for few months now, they had unprotected sex just one time and got pregnant. Based on the re-entry guidelines she is now back in school. Maria is now visibly pregnant walking along the corridors of a rural secondary school amidst social distancing and wearing masksContinue reading “Stigma and discrimination hindering pregnant girls to go back to school”

Dear Diary – Depression

Today was one of those days where dreams were so vivid and scary that my brain still cannot fathom what went one. Travelling back from the rural area was a task on its own arriving late and trying to be present and hopeful even when I feel broken inside is worrying. Dear diary today isContinue reading “Dear Diary – Depression”